So I have a couple of people that, even though I say “Hey I don’t really care about what happened in TOR, the past is the past and what happened can stay there”, continue to ‘update’ me once in a while. FSM only knows why. Probably trying to rouse my anger or something. I’ve held it off for months, you know. Not being mad or angry at anyone just IMMENSELY disappointed in the people directly involved, not that they would give a shit, I’m sure.
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But at some point I had to start hearing about how, “Oh yeah, you know that guild concept you worked on for three years? The one you were anticipating running since Aion started to flop (3 months after it was released lol)? Yeah so not only were you kicked out of your own guild that you created, but the people who stole it IC destroyed the ship and disbanded the Inquisition”.
Okay… alright… so the first time I heard this I was like *frowns* and tried to leave it at that. But when person number three comes to me and tells me the same thing and that it’s apparently some huge joke now? Yeah it does get under my skin a little. It still doesn’t really make me angry. Not much anyways. But it breaks the disappointment barrier into levels that aren’t even fathomable by most humans. I don’t think I’ve ever been this disappointed in anything (except public school, U.S. politics, cheating spouses, the Pell grant, ergonomic keyboards, fast food, Billy Mays, World of Warcraft, games that try to be World of Warcraft, games that try too hard to not be World of Warcraft, The Witcher 2, All three of the new Star Wars prequels, episode 9 season 2 of Game of thrones taking the chains out of the Blackwater scene, and my inability to find fandom of any kind with Harry Potter… TO NAME ONLY THE FIRST FEW).
I know it’s RP and no my life isn’t ruined by this. But it’s still something I made. Still something I wanted to do for years and looked forward to as I trudged through the mud of mediocrity that WoW turned in to. Don’t get me wrong, WoW was good times when it was good. I managed to take a guild that actually wasn’t fully my idea (Voc and I brainstormed it seemingly out of our asses) and then single handedly (because Voc promptly had to do work stuff for 6 months and then grew to hate WoW *shrug*) turned it into one of the biggest and best RP guilds on Moon Guard. Granted the officers I later recruited (namely Liucen and Vakrian) made that even better still and allowed the guild to grow into what it is now and Liucen is now the GM while I durp around the internet.
So back on topic, when you create something it belongs to you. Sure people can buy things, relabel it, repackage it even, put up ‘under new management’ signs, even steal them but it still belongs to you. It was your creation and thus it belongs to you in part if not in some… oddly metaphysical way? Not that I want to get into any “It’s mine and you stole it” type of things here or anything. But the crux of this rant, I guess, is this: Just because it was stolen from me doesn’t make it any less mine. So when it starts getting written about or put down or decided that somehow somewhere (because the people who were left in charge of it couldn’t handle it lol saw that coming) that the ship was ‘destroyed’ and the ‘Inquisition was dissolved’ I just kinda rolled my eyes and went WUT?
You can’t destroy something that wasn’t yours to begin with. You can’t just trash someone else’s idea and leave it in the latrines. It’s disrespectful to the max and ultimately petty. Which my girlfriend astutely points out is exactly the point of them doing this in the first place and she’s probably right. I probably shouldn’t be writing this at all, honestly. But is it my tumblr and I do rant here so fuck it, I don’t care that spies still keep up on me through this and my enjin wall. Have a good look and see how unhappy I am about it. You know how I’m just so sad that I have a loving girlfriend who not only puts up with my shit but is emotionally, intellectually and otherwise supportive of me? Where I have people who are genuinely interested in being my friend because they think I’m a good guy despite my blunt honesty that usually offends most idiots. To be in a gaming group comprised of (mostly) “real people” who have families and jobs and understand that RP or not it’s just a game. Yes please report back on how miserable I am XD I’ll just be here crying with my group of awesome people LOL.
I guess that was a bit passive aggressive. Or at the very least MASSIVELY sarcastic. It happens. Still, in the fashion of rants I guess I can say a couple more things before running off to slaughter zombies for a bit. First, the Shattered Sun may not be a guild in TOR any longer but the ship is not destroyed. At the very LEAST it’s whereabouts are ‘unknown’ OR its rolled into the greater Inquisition doing Inquisition stuff. The crew went through a massive internal investigation and most of them were replaced. Why? Because you can’t disband something that’s actually in the lore ffs. In the future I hope these people develop some respect and responsibility for intellectual property and to just ‘leave well enough alone’ when the damage has been done already.
I guess on a more somber note I’ll say that through my TOR experience I met a few good people, less than you might think, and through it facilitated me losing 3 decent friends and my best friend on top of it. Really, that’s my biggest hurt through my TOR experience. That a game and the people in it proved to be the end of a great friendship or what I thought was one (I evaluate this a lot because it boggles me still). I’d have stepped down from GM, officer, even member if it was absolutely necessary to keep my friend(s). But that wasn’t meant to be. It sucks that it ended up the way it did and yeah I sometimes miss people or maybe I miss the kind of times I used to have with said people. I would have liked them to meet some of the new friends I’ve made. I know that’s retarded now, friendships ended, guild disbanded and the quality of people revealed.
The jury’s still out on whether this entire affair is a positive thing or a negative thing. It has connotations of both, I suppose. Hmm. Well fuck off, /endrant.